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| "I'm an artist in an aquarium, Yes! i'm a water bender" |
It is not easy living like this and people seems to look at it like a funny fairy tale, yes its kinda super power for ordinary people, your ability to supply water on your own but for me, it is a curse - i was drown on my own water and everything seems sinking - i was around eight years old when i sought out that my hands are not normal, my lola, my grandma gave me different instruction for a natural remedy like putting my feet under warm water with dissolve salt or drink a lot of tea made from different leaves but seems that it doesn't work with me.
It is difficult for me to grow like any other children playing outside because i used to stay inside to avoid people picking a fight with a water bender. Then eventually as i turned high school i have to deal with socialization and meeting with people, and usually i hide my hands inside my pocket and everyone seems looking at me "hey, why don't you just join us" and i respond them with a smile and i go back to my sit. Sorry for those people i avoided, sorry for the chances of making small chitchat because i tried to cover everything to you because i just afraid that you will avoid me when you found out.
When i got in college, i focused more in extra curricular activities just to forget that i do have an extra ordinary ability, just to forget and say that "hey! i'm a normal kid" when the moment that someone pushes me to do something that isn't my plan i gradually live with it and everything seems growing that i didn't planned to and it is satisfying to see that i grow but i can't hide to myself that i do have a deficiency, the reason why i can't ask a girl to go out or just to render my hand for help and other consequential reason of my sweaty hands.
When i'm alone i usually ask the sky and stars about my condition, "Seven Billion people, Six livable Continent and one hundred ninety six countries but why me?" Speaking in front of the crowd, making a recitation or just merely erasing the writings in the board made me to back out and go back to my sit, people usually say "gross! don't touch me!" "hey! don't ever get closer with me" and "eew, go away!" maybe for them its kinda joke, yes i laughed to your silly annoyance but i asked me to say "how lucky are they to have a dry hands" maybe humans are very self oriented and self centered organism that's the reason why life isn't fair.
For me having a sweaty palm and feet is actually not a great barrier to go beyond my limit. the most difficult part is actually the people around you keep on depriving you and their understanding about your condition. As i grow older, i have to understand that these people will totally be sick about it: discrimination, judgement and everything. My biggest regret as of now would be, i didn't pursue in arts because people who are around me keep on telling me you won't make it because you'll be wasting papers and art material.
I taught myself that this condition is a reason for me not to give up, a reason for me to double my hardship and strive more because i'm not normal. I knew it will be difficult to fit in because this is a biological and foreign condition for a normal person, i knew it will be difficult for me to find a company that suits and accept my current state but it doesn't mean i can't because like my sweat, i'm pure and clear.
Thank you justalittlesweat.com "Living with Hyperhidrosis" for inspiring me, more power to you.
I'm a Water Bender
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Aeron Emmanuel
